Thank you for watching my Birthday video. I am truly overwhelmed by the memories of the last one year. But these would have been thwarted by my suicide attempt 1 year ago. Everything you saw in the video would have been wiped away ‘if’ I’d given up. Could it be that the pain I felt last year had seen the gains I was to make today? Could it be that my joy and victory were closer than I ever imagined? How much have you lost because you gave up too quickly?
You see, I must be sincere.
Before I went to bed on the 14th of April, 2015, I had taken a serious overdose of Lexotan, an anti-depressant I had been on for 3 months as recommended by my doctor. I couldn’t sleep well as I was deeply troubled and an emotional wreck.
While I prepared to see another birthday, I thought to myself, “hey, what the heck? What’s the essence of living if a woman I loved and suffered terribly to marry amidst both family’s oppositions could walk away after 12 years of a relationship with our children. Why carry on since she had turned down all efforts for a reconciliation?
I thought my life was meaningless.
I felt ashamed knowing I had counselled and helped many troubled marriages gain stability. I was a role model to many people and just couldn’t bear it.
My faith was failing me, and the pain seemed to cover my clouds.
So, I chose to sleep off and never wake up.
I was surprised when I opened my eyes the next morning.
I was hearing their voices but couldn’t place where I was.
They were shouting, “Nnanna”, “Rev”, “Wake Up!”
They had torn my window nets and luckily, my window was open.
They got a long stick and were hitting me with it trying to wake me up.
Before I slept, I shut my doors and switched off my phone. I tried making sure no one could wake me up,
but God had other plans.
Yes He did.
The last one year has been a great testimony.
I have lived to see better days, and the best is yet to come.
YOUR PAIN IS ONLY WORKING OUT A BETTER FUTURE. GO THROUGH IT!
If I could have seen today from the grave, I’m certain my pains would have been unimaginable. I was this close to a new life, and I didn’t know I was about destroying it.
Many of us are passing through experiences that make us doubt our reasons for living. We ask endless questions and get no answers except the silence of each passing moment.
But the truth remains that God’s love for us is unimaginable.
He said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Heb. 13:5)
It does not mean we won’t go through challenges, or suffer pain.
Sometimes, according to His plan, all He provides at such moments is just His Grace to go through the pain.
Three times, Apostle Paul, a friend of God, a Unique servant, so anointed that his lone voice withstood some of the greatest persecutions the Church has ever witnessed, asked the Lord to save him from his “thorn in the flesh” (2 Cor.12:1-11). But the Lord simply said, “My Grace is Sufficient for you”.
How unfair was that? This man has served faithfully and has helped many people with their pains. Yet, when it was his turn, God practically ignored the pain, only to offer His Grace.
“I didn’t ask you for grace Lord”
“All I want is my healing. Let the Pain Stop!”
Well, that’s not always “The Plan”.
Your Future is Greater
I do not know where you are at the moment, but I’m certain that if you will hold on for one more season, you will have a testimony.
I have lived another year since the incident and have not had a better year.
The love I received yesterday from all over the world left me in tears.
Watching the one year video showed me
- I’ve made new friends,
- Touched new lives,
- Grown intellectually, economically, socially and spiritually.
I HAVE INCREASED ON EVERY SIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The situation didn’t change, but my blessings as I held on through the pain have greatly increased.
I HUMBLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO HOLD ON.
The Pain you feel today is the strength you need tomorrow.
Let your reason for holding on be that you have seen tomorrow, and yes you have, through God’s word for you.
He says, “I will do a new thing” (Is. 43:11)
More so, I love the Common English Bible version of 1 Corinthians 2:9.
“God has prepared things for those who love him that no eye has seen, or ear has heard, or that haven’t crossed the mind of any human being.”
That’s quite reassuring.
Hold on my brother. Hold on my sister.
THE BEST IS YET TO COME
I pray for you to find strength to go one more mile.
I pray for you to find grace to endure the pain.
I pray for you to find courage to break into new grounds, and at the end of the day, I would love to celebrate with you.
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I wish you all the very best.